Hello you,
How has it been? I hope you're doing fine and that whatever condition you're in right now, you are okay. I still keep you in my prayers.
I should have asked, I know. But I didn't. It's not that I hate you so much I don't want to talk to you anymore. Angry, yes. Hate, no. I'm just afraid that if I started to make contact, I won't be able to stop. I'm pretty sure you don't want that either considering you were the first to cut all the ties we had on social media. And you didn't stop me from leaving.
I took that as that was it.
You know me very well so you must know I am still pretty much devastated even after a month. I haven't seen much TV these days because Astro reminds me of you.
How weird it is that I used to be so excited to celebrate your birthday next year and it'll be in less than 2 months away. I had mentally plan everything in my head, too bad.
New year is coming and I want to leave 2012 behind.
I hope you find whatever it is that you're looking for and the things that you didn't find when you were with me.
I hope you meet someone who can bring out the best in you.
I hope you get all the very best things in life.
I hope you're happy.
I hope you change for the better, and that you'll be a better man, son and brother.
I hope you know that for as long as I was with you, I have loved you with everything I have.
And I sure hope you know that when I left, I didn't do it because I didn't love you.
I did, still do.
You knew why I left anyways.
And I hope that one day, I can find it in my heart to forgive you for the pain you put me through.
I want to do it now but the pain is unbearable but one day, I will.
I wish you well, and love.
Wahida R.
